Dreams

In my waking hours, my thoughts of you are… complicated. Wondering if you feel like I do. Wondering how we could get from here to togetherness. Wondering how it would affect the lives of those around us. Wondering so many things…

But at night, I dream the simple things. Sitting on a porch together, watching the sunset in companionable silence. Kissing you as we float through the void, nothing around us but an infinity of stars. Or, this morning, you calling me on the phone, and just chatting for hours. My dreams are a distillation of what I long for, pared down to the basics. Love, companionship, simply time spent with you.

I think my subconscious has it right. I'm going to bring my conscious mind in line. It's a big ship to steer so it might take time, and I'll likely falter every now and then… but we make mistakes so we can learn from them, right? Just as I think it was a mistake to let myself get so worked up throughout July…

I'd say wish me luck, but I think I've actually got this.

See you soon.

❤️